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[ no bertolt you can't just tell him there's more and then not tell him! ]

Ah... then we really must practice. If you're going to tell him, I want you to make it amazing.

[ not in the middle of a threesome when you admit to eyeing him up in the barracks. ]

... I never realized that. Oh my god, Big Big. That's - [ adorable? can he call someone who's killed hundreds of thousands of people that? yes. ] adorable.

_{[Sure he can! He's kept bigger secrets!]}

I want it to be perfect. Something he'll remember even if we do go home.

_{[That... That's one way to win, Jean. That's definitely a way to win.]}

People keep using that word with me. I don't think it means what they think it means.

I don't think he could ever forget once you tell him. But yes, I'll help you make it perfect.

[ he laughs at the next statement. ]

Bertl, you are. Especially when you get all flustered.

...If it goes okay, I'm taking you out for dinner. I don't know what they have but I bet I can find something you'd like. And I'm not taking no for an answer, you'd deserve it.

_{[He'll take him out for... hell, whatever "froyo" is! That sounded good, right?]}

Reiner's the one that looks cute when he's flustered, not me.

Oh my gosh, Bertl - let me at least help you before you go promising things like that. What if I come up with a terrible plan?

[ marco would fuckin' love froyo. ]

You managed to fluster him? Tell me how! I only ever saw him get flustered when Annie would knock him on his butt.

It's my plans that'll be the terrible ones, Marco. But okay.

_{[He's heard sooooo many nice things about it. Plus it's just fun to say.]}

I can't say, it's too embarrassing.

I'll totally let you take me out once we're successful. Because we will be, okay? Between us we're pretty smart.

Noooo, you can't say you flustered him and then not tell me how!

...Okay.

...I'll tell if you promise to keep it a secret. Not even Jean can know, okay?

Super promise! Jean won't ever know, okay?

I.. said I'd bite his butt and then I said it was harmless after he said "I mean, if you're scared," and nudged it with my foot.

He actually blushed, Marco. And he was pretending to scowl a little and he wouldn't make eye contact for a few seconds.

You threatened to bite his butt?

... Did you do it? It's a nice butt. I bet he got really flustered if you did.

...I probably should've, but I was comfortable with him laying on me.

He really does have a nice one though. Plus he grabbed mine before that, so it would've been payback.

[ oh my god bert how would you ever think reiner would turn you down. you could probably stutter out the confession in the worst way and he'd still be over the moon.

was this what he and jean were like? he owes so many apologies to so many people. ]

Okay, I get how using him as a pillow beats out biting, but you should still do it. Maybe when he's not expecting it.

And yes, it's a very nice one. I'm a taken man and I can still admit that.

_{[Oh, he's going to stutter it out alright. No matter how many times he practices what he's going to say, it's not coming out the way he wants it to.]}

You think so?

...I'm a little worried about something though. How are you and Jean going to manage sharing eachother here? Are you both okay with it?

I think so. Like a silly surprise.

[ ah, bertolt's question actually gives marco pause as he thinks about it. he and jean haven't discussed it much at this point... ]

We haven't talked about it yet... I know at home I'd just want Jean all to myself. But here I think as long as I know he loves me, and we were honest about who we were sleeping with.... it'd be fine. Maybe just talk to each other if someone we're sleeping with is bothering us.

...Which Jean is terrible at.

[ and marco too, not that he'll admit it. ]

...I am too. The talking thing, I mean.

_{[And being honest about who he was sleeping with... Hoo boy, he's definitely not going to mention that day with Hange if he can help it. He wants to blame the chip for most of it, but deep down he knew he went along with it of his own volition. He could've left, but he didn't.]}

...Honestly, I wish I could just marry him instead. I just want people to know he's mine - emotionally? I don't know. I just don't want people to think they can steal him away. ...Assuming he likes me back. I know you and Jean keep saying that it's impossible for him not to, but|

I'm still scared.

Well, you can work on that... I think we all can, honestly.

And that's what I want. I want to know that Jean only wants to be with me, and love me, and not to worry about that changing... I mean I'm not worried. But still.

... It is scary. But he and you have been through a lot together. Even on the off chance he didn't feel the same... he's not gonna leave you alone.

And that's why we're gonna practice until it's not scary anymore.

...This is going to be one of the hardest things I've done in my life. Being stared down by Shadis wasn't nearly this bad...

Promise we'll get it down?

You won't ever want to relive that day with Shadis after you do this. I promise, Bert... that's how good it feels right now.

We'll get it down. It'll be rolling off your tongue.

Gods I think I'm going to cry again. I just...

You have no idea how much this means to me, Marco.

Good tears hopefully, right?

I have some idea how much it means... I mean, if it's anything like how I felt about Jean, I know.

No, I'm crying because you're stabbing me in the heart with a sharp knife and twisting it. How could you, Marco? You're supposed to be a saint| Yes, good ones.

Can we pick a date before August? At the very least I'd... like to do it before Reiner's birthday. As much as I'd like to tell him then, I don't know if I could keep it in for two months. Well... Almost one.

Yeah, we can do it before Reiner's birthday! That gives us plenty of time to get practice in, especially if you want to do it more than once.

Maybe just once.

...Or twice, depending on how it goes.

However long it needs to be! Once or twice. Okay, hopefully not three times.

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